Before you started reading, I warned you to not putting my way of living as your life example. Even I won't make myself a role model if I got to choose.
Oh, and I wrote a lot down there. You are very much allowed to not read this post.
If you are meeting me for the first time (or first time after a long time) in real life, I could guarantee that the first statement coming out from your mouth must be "oh you are so skinny." or "why are you so skinny?" Honestly, I'm too used with it now, and "it's hereditary" is my only answer to it. I'm not bragging. I honestly don't like it when people said I'm skinny, cause it's not a healthy-skinny.
My father's side of the family is known to be skinny. I think almost all of my dad families are skinny. And luckily or not, I got the gen of my dad's side. I'm about 160cm tall, and weight only about 41-44kg at most. Usually, I stay at 42kg. Obviously underweight. I mean, imagine my dad, who is slightly taller than me (maybe just a couple cm) only had a 6kg difference with me. A man at 48kg? Can you imagine how skinny he is?
My eating habit obviously one of the reason of me being underweight. If you know OCD (obsessive corbuzier diet), it almost seems like I did that for my entire year of university. When I eat regularly, three times a day with a couple snack in between, I could gain weight around 3kg in just a couple weeks (which I lose it again with another months of living alone), I could even weight 46kg on my high school life. But the older I am, the more it went downhill.
Ever since I live alone for my study, my proper meal is only once a day. Sometimes I could even go without eating rice, only eating snacks and drinking tea. I drink tea almost everyday, and I could drink almost a liter of it. I think my body started to consume another kind of sugar to cover for the lacks of carbs. My breakfast consist of a lotsss of water, and sometimes oatmeal cookie or food bar (like fitbar an the likes). It's not even on the right time. My breakfast happen any time when I woke up, so sometimes it merged with lunch. Lunch is irregular too. Sometimes I eat at 11am, or as late as 3pm. There's no dinner (sometimes there is, but it's very rare), only late night snacking, which consist of me eating dry snack at dawn. Totally unhealthy. It's not that my parents didn't gave me enough allowance, it's more that enough. My dad even offered me more in case I'm running out of it (which I only asked once in my entire studies up till now), and given me full access to his card. Just so that I won't used up the money they gave me for meals.
The habit of not eating making me developed some kind of binge eating. When I'm with another person, I ate lots. Like 3 meals merged into one (once when I go with my mum, we visited 3 different kind of eating place in just half a day). When I go with my dad, we eat meals, and then visited coffee shop for a drink and some snack, ended with a visit to an ice cream parlor.
All of this is making me unable to do toilet business no.2 (if peepee is no.1, guess what no.2 isss) regularly. My record right now is a week with no no.2. Blehhh.
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